N​.​G​.​H​.​4​.​M. (Never Gonna Happen 4 Me)

by Toby Driver

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Jeremy Kerner Imagining a parallel universe where creators of this kind of exquisite work thrive. Driver’s tunes set me adrift in an ocean of potential and wonder. Long may he weave his magic. Favorite track: N.G.H.4.M. (Never Gonna Happen 4 Me).
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brineryte No one could have expected that in the same year Kayo Dot releases their most profound work to date, Toby would still deliver us something as provocative and beautiful as this. Ethereal and avant garde as ever, this new era of Toby's compositions is easily my favorite. He continues to inspire and baffle. His music imposes an experience unlike any other. I truly believe we're hearing the future of music through his works though the world may not recognize that yet.
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João Cachulo Stunningly beautiful and delicate track by one of my most beloved artists. Toby Driver keeps giving me hope for the future of music.
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Good bye, 2019.

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N.G.H.4.M.

Paladin of the basement light
Now I'm done believing
Locked swords, and ready to die
Now I'm done believing
Here's to permanent morningside
Because I'm done believing
Train goes at seven o' five
With my damn belief, I'm done believing

On the platform at six fifty-nine
Now I'm done believing
Fourteen geese in the platinum sky
Now I'm done believing
Paper dancing with a poltergeist
In the calm beneath me
Train came on December nine
For my damn belief, I'm done believing

Early morning railroad ride
Now I'm done believing
Hands hold overcoat shut tight
But I'm done believing
Twenty years is enough to have tried
Now I'm done believing
Look at the geese one more time
With a calm relief, I am done believing

Now I'm done believing, I am done believing
To the bars beneath me, I am done believing

Words drowned out under the train
Plain closed casket, eyes can't touch me
The winter can't know the body of light
And the body can't touch the sidereal mind
Now I'm done believing, I am done believing, throw me
To the bars beneath me, I am done believing

This is me taking sides
Now I'm done believing
This is me with my heart untied
Now I'm done believing
I did it for our unborn child
Please believe me
Bury me at seven o'five
In the bars beneath, I am done believing

No birds on fire crashing down
No crack in the dome of this fragile world
No crying into the quaking ground
No angry god, no indifferent god
Now I'm done believing, I am done believing, throw me
To the bars beneath me, I am done believing

Paladin of the basement light
Sheathed sword and ready to die
Under the covers is a dream of stars
If he knew then, he wouldn't have run so far
Now I'm done believing, I am done believing, throw me
To the bars beneath me, I am done believing

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released December 19, 2019
Written, performed, and recorded December 2019 by Toby Driver.

Some organs were provided courtesy of Nick Hudson and St. Mary's Cathedral Kemptown.

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